I escaped a dark and soul-crushing world where my life wasn't my own. I could trust no one. I was entirely alone. By sheer accident, I met a mysterious westerner online, mere weeks from forced marriage. Not only did she shatter my programming, but suggested we meet in Kiev. Getting to Ukraine's capital was going to be my escape, my battle to take back my life, and my only chance to survive.
If years back from my home in Russia, I could have seen myself now, I would never have believed I could have such a life. Back then, it was unimaginable. Unattainable. I choose who to be with. I determine who I am and what I do. I had no idea the relationship I have now was even possible! I live an adventure that doesn't seem to end.
Once Meg and I had escaped and were on the run for our lives, crossing the planet on our own, we became our true selves. There is simply no going back for us. We will never go back to the charades, the noise, the programming and denigration of what matters the most to us: our very life experience, our lives. What we have now, despite the dangers and threat of separation we constantly face, is a million times more valuable to us than what we had years back, when we were trying to fit in and be people we were not.
I hope my story inspires you to fight for you! There will never be a better friend and support for you than you. Yourself. My determination and strength came to me only when I started believing in myself, and more than anything, loving myself.
My story is about love. In 2006, I permitted myself to love me! To love the world and the person who was making it shine for me. I have never stopped loving, and I am living my dream!